the state of me

Kind readers,

what a world, eh? Apparently, many are embracing a feverish “let’s give fascism a chance” mindset; good luck with that.

I’d like to hope that we’re witnessing the rancid and apoplectic death throes of conservatism everywhere. They’re displaying the nastiest they have to offer for all the world to see, without a doubt. And I’ve certainly never abhorred evangelical christianity (and religion in general) more than I do now, which is saying something.

Fuck, this shit is exhausting, though. I doubt I’ll be watching the news much over the next four years, because on the rare occasions I’ve done so this past week, I felt ill and wound up thinking things like “If all else fails, there’s always a bottle of pills.” So yeah. PTSD hell for sure. It’s been a while since I had thoughts like that. I’ll be taking care of myself (I’m through treating myself like a damn second thought), and doing the one thing I CAN do, which is writing. This is how I fight. And stay alive.

If anyone has a problem with this, my response is, tell me again how I should live my life.

A lot of books ahead.

Also, the pile of Festivus toys and gifts I’m currently amassing will make last year’s pile look like a little bump.

If you’d like to know how Quietus went, take a look here. In a nutshell: it was magical.



I’m really not sure I’ll be doing this again. It was wonderful, but it took a whole lot out of me. Maybe in a couple of years, I’ll change my mind, but… I don’t know that I will. As it is, I’m definitely not going to MISTI. Not only am I tired, but I have no intention of visiting a country run by a sociopathic demagogue. Also, the big fandom conventions and all that… I’m at a point in my life where I’m moving on from this. I’ve been to Convention Alley twice, to Witching Hour, to Lumos, Prophecy, Infinitus, Aeternitas, Ascendio, to MISTI twice… Only three times did I not go to an event I’d planned to attend: Phoenix Rising, Leviosa (I was supposed to speak, and let them know six months in advance I wouldn’t be going), and now MISTI 2017.

I’m done. It’s enough. I was so drained during MISTI 2015, I think I was coming to the realization that a chapter of my life was ending.

My final HP fandom contribution, if I may call it that way, will be my book Severus Snape and the Art of Being Human. It won’t be so much a fandom thing, or an analysis of Professor Snape, but more like the story of how he helped me get through many changes and upheavals, right up to my secular present. It’s going to be a celebration of being human.

My enjoyment of Harry Potter is more a personal thing than a fandom thing these days. As I’ve mentioned in a previous post, the “Fantastic Beasts” trailers fail to rouse my interest; if anything, I find them tedious and boring. “How many more billions can we squeeze out of this thing?”

I’d much rather add to my toy collection, read about Tiki culture and 70s kitsch, and write more books.

I’ve also moved on from Livejournal.

You can find me here, on Twitter, Instagram, and Imzy. I’ll be writing personal posts on Apostate Island.

Here’s a Twitter friend, Kaxas11, with her copies of my latest books:


Supportive photos like these are always phenomenally appreciated.

Right now, I’ll be focusing on Hit the Road and Be Who You Are and My Merry Secular Holiday.

Another thing: is peri-menopause a bucket of fun, or what. I was a month late this month; so, skipped a month for the first time ever, and it’s hit me like a fucking sledgehammer, let me tell you. I need more pain medication even as I write this. And a nap. Lately, when I have to do an errand or whatever, I’ll just pull on a fresh pair of trunks, throw on some jeans, get my grubby hoodied self over to the store, grab what I need, and rush back home. I just don’ts care. Ya knows?

So anyway, thank you for playing! And remember, Elvis loves you.

Your devoted
Logospilgrim, the quiet professor

news news news

Kind readers,

August already. I do, however, love this time of year. August is slow and quiet and lush, summer at its height with the first hints of autumn in the air…

This weekend, I’ll be working on the second edit of Atheist Tiki Hour. Then I’ll send the book to Atheist Republic next week.

*chewing on hands*

A lot of atheist books focus on the history of religion, analyze Biblical contradictions and inaccuracies, knock down creationism, and so on, and they do so very well. I have many of those books; they’re vital. My own books focus more on religion as abusive in nature, religious faith as a relationship with an abuser. I share my own experiences to highlight this reality, and in Tiki Hour I write about how my exposure to domestic violence and the post-traumatic stress disorder I’ve suffered as a result made me extremely susceptible to the poisoned apple of faith. I write about the vulnerable, idealistic, tender-hearted believer who was traumatized into belief, as it were. It’s an awareness campaign.

I also write about the vibrant joy of godless living.

In other news, Quietus 2016!

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The room block is all set, and attendees can now make their reservations.

Also, I’m thrilled to announce our first amazing guests.

Lorrie Kim will be giving a lecture and signing copies of her beautiful and insightful brand new book:


On Sunday afternoon, talented musician and song writer Errand of Mercy will be performing gentle Snape inspired acoustic songs for us. She’ll also have copies of her gorgeous CD.


Quietus is set to be a special intimate gathering, which gives me a great deal of happiness.

As soon as Tiki Hour is wrapped up, I’ll start working on these books:


The story of how Logospilgrim’s ideas about Professor Snape helped her
adjust and evolve as she went through a series of life-altering changes.

I hope to have this book ready in time for Quietus, but we’ll see! I will be rambling on Saturday afternoon.

antique toy on white background  - boy driving tricycle

Eat penny candy while sitting on the sidewalk, and do your own damn thing.

Be your kind of happy.

Needless to say, I’ll be letting you know when Atheist Tiki Hour is released as soon as I have that information.

Otherwise, I’m relaxing, enjoying tranquil summer days, and adding more toys to my collection.

I hope you’re having a marvelous summer too.

Your devoted
Logospilgrim, the quiet professor

Quietus 2016: registration is LIVE

Kind readers,

registration for Quietus 2016 has officially begun!

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Go to the registration page and click on the cauldron to register. Print your Paypal payment receipt and bring it with you to Quietus: it’ll be your ticket 🙂

You’ll be able to make your room reservations soon; I’ll be letting everyone know, so stay tuned for more news. There will be a discount for attendees.

We’ll eat splendid meals, talk about Professor Snape, chat, dress up, play Candy Land, watch a funny movie, partake of fine beverages, relax, have a good time in a room that looks like it could be inside a castle…

I’m really looking forward to seeing loved ones at Quietus.

If you’re coming and have friends you believe might enjoy this gathering, do tell them about it!

My summer and autumn will be dedicated to writing, and this event.

Once I finish writing Atheist Tiki Hour, I’ll get started on Severus Snape and the Art of Being Human; I’d love to have copies of this book available in time for Quietus.

Your devoted
Logospilgrim, the quiet professor

Quietus 2016: movie time!

Kind readers,

I’m a busy creative beaver.

Today, I designed a banner for Quietus:

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I wanted to capture the quietude and coziness of this gathering.

The number of loved ones on the guest list is growing. This feels like a warm pat on the back ❤

Also, I contacted the licensing people, and this is the movie that will be shown on Saturday night:


This film is an under-appreciated classic. An ode to weirdness! And outcasts.

Your devoted
Logospilgrim, the quiet professor

Quietus 2016: it’s a go!

Kind readers,

we’re finally getting summer days here in my neck of the woods, and does it ever feel wonderful. For the first time in months, I’m not a walking icicle. Sunshine, open windows, mild, lilac-scented breezes…

I took a photo to celebrate the fact that I’ve been enjoying all of this, as well as summer wear, very much:


I got myself a super terrifically fun bag—one of the best ways to celebrate anything is to get a bag—and a hot dog key chain.


I’m writing, writing, writing.

In other happy news, registration for Quietus will take place this week or next! Allow me to share what I posted on the Quietus website yesterday.

Quietus 2016 is happening on the weekend of November 5 & 6 at the stunning and tranquil Ramada Ottawa On The Rideau.

Don’t book your room yet! I need to give the down payment on the room rental. I’ll be doing so very soon.

There will be a maximum of 50 attendees. This year, at any rate. We’ll see how it goes in 2018.

Registration is set at 60.00. Remember, this is 60.00 Canadian, so right now, around 45.00 US dollars. To cover my ass, because I’m renting the room and organizing everything, there will be NO REFUNDS. It will be possible to transfer a registration until September 1.

I thought I’d collect funds via Indiegogo, but I’ve come to the conclusion that it would be much simpler to accept payments via Paypal. I’ll be setting this up this week. If you want to come, please email me at logospilgrim at gmail dot com, as I’ll be contacting the people on the guest list first!

Registration doesn’t include meals. It does include everything else, plus a selection of hors d’oeuvres at the cocktail party Sunday night.

Meals, i.e. lunch and dinner, must take place at the venue, in the Quietus room. The menu will feature a set number of choices: a soup and salad, and three different dishes, one of which will be vegetarian. And dessert, I imagine. I’ll be discussing this with the event organizer once I’ve made the down payment. The meals are around twenty dollars or less (the lunch selection will be cheaper).

Attendees must stay at the venue hotel. There will be a special room discount. The moment it’s possible to make room reservations, I’ll let you know; this will be very soon after I’ve given them the deposit for the room rental.

If there are more than 40 attendees, there will be more perks, such as food items (fancy cupcakes in the Quietus room and so on), neat gifts in the registration bags… Things like that.

Yet again, I’ve updated all the pages on the Quietus website with new information.

I had such a nice time discussing the convention details with the event organizer this afternoon. At first, I thought that the restaurant was still in their amazing room with the stone arches and medieval style chandeliers, but that room is now one of their three conference areas.

Obviously, there was only one possible choice! That’s the room I selected. All of Quietus will take place there. It’s going to be extraordinary.

I’m not going to lie, I’m feeling verklempt. This event is going to be my baby. It’s going to be an introvert Harry Potter fan’s dream come true.

If you’d like to come, please email me at logospilgrim at gmail dot com. Once I have the Paypal registration payment set up, I’ll contact the people on that list first. It’s going to happen this week or next.

I have to say that every time I’ve been to this hotel, it just gets more beautiful. It’s about ten minutes away from the airport by taxi (see the hotel page), though there’s also a shuttle.




So, there you have it!

The thought of being in this beautiful, intimate room with loved ones makes my heart swell. If everything goes well, and everyone has a great time, next time I do this, in 2018, I’d increase the number of attendees to maybe 80.

I’m thinking that after I finish writing Atheist Tiki Hour, I’ll plunge into Severus Snape and the Art of Being Human so I have copies in time for Quietus… We’ll see!

The informal activities that will take place Sunday afternoon will encourage happy times, friends interacting… I’m thinking games, coloring, things like that… For instance, I’ll bring my Candy Land game, among others! I’ve been dying to play Candy Land with loved ones, and isn’t that a perfect game to play at Hogwarts?

I’m putting my heart into Quietus. I so hope to see you there ❤

Your devoted
Logospilgrim, the quiet professor